Welcome. My name is Amdrita. I’m an artist and systemic psychotherapist, and painting is the space in which I grow—internally and externally. This growth is not without pain. It taught me how to accept myself in gentle and radical ways especially in times when I’ve witnessed outgrowing myself in familiar environments. It comes with visible and invisible scars. Yet through my artistic process, I learn to accept that pain. It’s part of my life, but it never defines it.

Growth is a core truth of my being. It reveals itself through light and shadow, color and form, symbols and silence. My art is a journey, each piece a portal to a place I can never return to. I encounter emotions that shape my humanity. My colors are visual frequencies. They first resonate within me and then unfold outwardly through the seasons, perception and my projections in reality I inhabit. Nothing stays hidden.

Art releases me from the illusion of control and the need for safety. When I create, I am beyond fearless. Art gives me the sensation of having a home, even as someone who has no national identity. The more honestly I connect with myself, the more peace I feel inside. My work reflects my freedom, my boundaries, and my ongoing dialogue with nature and systemic fatigue with chaos and trauma.

There were times I swallowed rage and sorrow, moments when no colors were near. But when I paint, I breathe more consciously, more deeply. My art practice is ritual: letting go, re-connecting and praying. Each painting is a manifestation of a temporary state. An offering, a prayer.

I know the root of my trauma. I understand my role in it, the pain I’ve learned to forgive myself for, and the healing I am actively engaged in. I know there are people who love me simply because I exist—because I breath. Every breath is a transition to our higher selves. Keep breathing.

My art is an embodiment of that existence: raw, evolving, illuminated. Living my life consciously means accepting that my breath is part of my eternal beauty and death, too.

„FOR ONE WITH A BACKGROUND LIKE MYSELF, THE QUESTION OF IDENTITY IS VERY UNCERTAIN. AND I THINK ITS ONLY IN ART THAT IT WAS EVER POSSIBLE FOR ME TO FIND ANY IDENTITY AT ALL.“ - ISAMU NOGUCHI, 1973